home alone

ok, i don't want to generalize, or use that old "men will be men" excuse. so what excuse can i use?

jovan is in spain. he left on thursday of last week. i dropped him off and said, "call me and let me know you made it ok. if you can't use the phone, drop me an email." well, here we are. it's tuesday and no call. no big deal, you say? i'm sure he's fine and just busy, you say? ah, you know men, they just don't think about that stuff, you say?

meanwhile there are a million thoughts going through my head about what could have possibly happened to him.
1. the whole job was a scam, and he's been kidnapped.
2. the plane crashed and he never made it to spain.
3. he's decided to throw in the towel on america and never come back
4. he's been abducted by aliens

ok, none of these are very likely. but still, how hard is a simple call. so instead i'm making excuses for him.
1. he doesn't have internet access (even though he carried his laptop with him)
2. his phone doesn't work in spain
3. he's so busy training for his new job he hasn't had time to call.
4. he doesn't have money for a phone card.
5. he just doesn't know how much this kills me (despite the fact that we've been together over 3 years!)


if the situation were reversed it would have only taken me a second to figure out how to contact him and let him know i was ok. so why has this thought not crossed his mind? "because men just don't think about those things."

i'm not buying it.